Part 2 of Christmas was crappy compared to Part 1. My Nana still continues to silently punish me for the fact I am living my life in sin. I thought that after everything she has been through this year with her cancer coming back and us having a wonderful time at the concert that she’d finally be able to move on from that. Nope. She continues throwing in little jabs here and there to remind me that she is not pleased. Her attitude towards me not only in her gift giving but receiving of my gift completely set me off to the point where I didn’t speak to her the rest of the evening and didn’t say goodbye when I left for home.

Technically speaking, my Christmas present to Nana was taking her to the Andre Rieu concert. Since Mormor decided that she would help pay for the tickets, it somewhat ruined the effect for me. I managed to come across Andre Rieu’s latest album so I burned a copy of the two disc set and put it together in a nice box as a souvenir of the concert. I even bought a special CD label making kit to make it as authentic as possible. It wasn’t until Christmas Eve that my dad told me my Nana doesn’t have a CD player. I thought he was mistaken because I could have SWORN she got one when she remodeled her living room. As soon as I presented my present to Nana, she interrupted me by repeating the fact she doesn’t have a CD player. And instead of adding the CD to her bag of other gifts she tossed it aside. Both Joshua and Uncle Mike witnessed the scene in addition to how hurt I was. I could barely make it back to the sofa before bursting into tears.

Then I opened my presents. First I opened my gifts from Uncle Mike + Cousins which included Mary Poppins on DVD and a $25 gift card to Barnes & Nobles. However, I go to open my presents from Nana where I receive that EXACT SAME THING! About two months ago I made a special trip to visit Nana so I could deliver my Christmas list to her personally. I emphasized the fact I had given the same list of DVDs to Uncle Mike so it was crucial she communicate with him so as not to get the same DVD. She assured me she would saying that she sees him all the time so it wouldn’t be a problem. Why do I feel like that never happened? It may not appear to this way to you the reader, but to me I felt like there wasn’t much effort put into her gift giving to me. All I could hear Smelly saying was, “Thank you Nana! I got EVERYTHING I wanted!”

I made myself scarce throughout the remainder of the evening. My mom and Joshua were the only ones that comforted me because they completely understand the situation. Both Mormor and my dad made me feel like I was being overly sensitive and overreacting, which upset me even more. By the end of the evening my dad offered me a little bit of comfort, but still I walked away from Christmas hurt beyond belief. I feel like I try so hard to keep my relationship good with my Nana, but she continues to hurt me. And I don’t say anything to her about it because I have that much respect for her.

I hope everyone had a good Christmas though. Today I get to go to work from 2-11pm and deal with people and their refunds. Yay.

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Smelly commented on Wednesday, December 26th, 2007, 11:33 am

That is such BS! I can’t believe you had to deal with that last night.. I had no idea they got you the exact same things.. and I saw what Nana did with your CDs… that was immature of her. I am really sorry things turned out this way…I really am..

Holly commented on Wednesday, December 26th, 2007, 10:59 pm

Good grief, I agree with your sister, what absolute rubbish! I’d have been equally upset if I’d been you!

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